LOST

The intern life had done... For this 3 months...

For a real story, I do learn many things from my colleagues, Alfie, Karol, Branden and also the boss Terry and his wife Samantha.

I write this with my heart. It is a GREAT job done by them.
Especially, Terry and Karol, they are just so good in leadership and motivation.
I used to joined many times of leadership camp and also conduct some chess tournament and also participate in the some other camp conducted by E-major.
This is the part I cant forget or ignore because it do happen in my life.
Daily task we promise to do for the event Property Outlook Conference........
No FB chat or FB marketing...
I can feel that Ms.Karol is only concentrate on what we promise to do but WHAT I FELT is I been targeted... I been BLAMED... So I'm the one who became a black sheep?
Maybe... But who cares? Only me cares...

I know what are they tried to do, they know how to motivate people to do the thing they want but they stop themselves. I learn from them how to talk, how to tell a person this is the chance you wanted to get but why not now?

The time just fly until nobody cares about what and how you had done for your life.
Times flies... when i write the comment to WMA... 3 months just pass like a eye flip...

To be serious... I look to myself... The first time I realize the cruelest thing inside me...
I'm just a child who still want people to babysitting. I'm just a kid who just don't believe on myself. I'm just a 24 years old adult with masks named "Confidence", "Proud", "Responsibility".
I'm tired not because I wear the masks. It is because I can't trust in myself.

Since when I lost my confidence, my proud, my responsibility~
Since when I scare, I fear, I escape~
I don't dare to face...

I know when I'm small I'm good in everything.
I'm good in every route I know...
I'm good in memorize all the things..
I'm good in handle all the things in my hand..
I remember I have a timetable which schedule by myself.
I remember I have a account book which record my expense and my savings.
I remember I have a book which record all my friend.

Since when I forget my dream
Since when I forget my confidence
Since when I forget my proud
Since when I throw all the PROUD and CONFIDENCE in my child time.

Color blind make me have a different view from the normal...
I make me like an alien.. I'm just too scare from people eye sights..
What I wear doesn't make people look at me like a superstar..
What I should do is why I need to care..

I know confidence is the very great part I lost...
Lost of confidence...
It makes me doubt..
Doubt on everything...
The route, option, memory and also my dream...

This post should end like this..
Sorrow, anger, anxious put in my heart.. What should I do for this...
Another 6-7 months... I will finish my study... It's time to face myself early then later, right?

Let the heart get the lead... The year 2008, that year I still thinking what is life...
What is the meaning of life...
That book.. Victor... The people release from World War 2...
WHAT is the meaning of LIFE?

I'm LOST...