Friday, June 27, 2008

奇怪~

真是奇怪啊...
我明明想要好好地读书的咯..
但是就是无法集中精神啊..

为了什么呢?
我找了老师讲的那本书: "A Man Search For Meaning"
华文译本: "活出自己来"
By Victor Frankl

有很闷的感觉...
内里说了作者在集中营的各种形形色色的状况..
囚犯们的心理状态..
原来一个人在失去了希望会突然间看见自己最不想看到的结局..
书里有位傅先生在梦里梦见了自己在1954年3月30日会得到释放...
但是到了那天的前一天, 并没有想傅先生所想象的事发生..
他在转眼间, 昏迷不醒... 不久, 便去世了..
真如他所说的, 在那天他得到了解放..
就想知道自己在那天就会离开这个世间上..

在集中营里, 是没有什么人生可言的..
因为, 稍不留心就会造成自己的生命受到威胁...
他们被剥夺了身为人的自觉, 骄傲, 尊严!
他们的每一步都是为了生存!

但是, 在他们获得自由时, 长期的凌虐已经彻底地夺取他们的人格和精神!
他们必须重新认识自己的各种...
自己的人生, 快乐...

人生的意义已经不是说可以找到的..
只能说这是每个人的经历..
因为, 没有人是可以夺取你所经历的各种生活, 人生!!
书中, 有一句来自某诗人的话: 尔之经历, 无人能夺!
真是一句很棒的句字..

在营里, 只有想着几样事而已..
那就是能活到何时?
明天我可以拿到多少"奖金"?
我能不能支持到那天呢?
我一定要活下去..
不要太突显自己, 否则会被欺负到死!!

在现在这个时代, 我并没有受到这样的对待..
但是, 我可以继续坚强地活下去吗?
我的人生是由我所创造的?
还是冥冥中就安排好了呢?

何为天命?
我命由我不由天?
想必它也是有它一番的道理..
英雄造时势? 时势造英雄?
这是我从嘉豪那边听来的?
各位, 你们是站在那一边的呢?

我认为只有在死亡后才可以得到结论!
因为, 没有人知道死亡的奥秘..
就算知道, 它们也未必是真实的..
没有任何的证据...
那么, 死亡过后是什么呢?
等着我们的是什么呢?
传说中的地府?还是卫斯里小说中的外星人创造的地府?
无人得知啊..

如果我能在死后还能BLOGGING的话, 我一定会告诉大家!
但是, 现在的我还不想那么快去见识见识~
到了最后, 是我的学习心已经枯萎了?
还是我已经失去我学习的理由呢?
和朋友谈了一下..
他似乎得到他要的东西..
他设好了方向, 他依然存在着发展的空间..
我会好好地祝福他~

到了这个地步, 我只能让自己随着时间这个大河流继续漂流了..
因为我相信时间是不间断的...
它还可能是一个循环...
只能往前, 就象棋局里的的卒仔...
但是几时才能过得了河(时间吧)
就无从可知了~

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Aiyo~

今天去送机啦~
虽然我不知道我去干嘛啦~

但是却有一些后悔~
如果我没有去的话, 也不会不见了东西...
不是我的, 是嘉豪的...
一样很重要的东西...
在他发现时, 他很慌..
还一脸忧郁的感觉..

我开始有些觉得对不起他了..
我第一次看到他如此地紧张...
华美没有选错人EH..
我真的相信他会等华美回来咯...
让任何人看到这个情景, 都会觉得嘉豪有多爱她~
他答应在她面前不哭的....
在她离开的时候, 泪掉下来了...
这是很正常的一样事...
但是, 很难得可以看到他哭咯...

回家的时候, 我望着他的背影...
他真的受创了..
不要问我是什么不见了..
我只希望他能好好地过...

我应该出现吗?
我应该去送机吗?
虽然过去了..
我还是很自责...
不要安慰我, 我会度过这个时段...
清楚地了解自己...
是时候讲出那件事了...

Saturday, June 21, 2008

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Today is a day b4 my fren-Hua May go to TAIWAN~

She will take the flight to there at 1755~
So we decide go 送机~
except hanyao and Czuo..
Both of them din go...
No nid to be so sorrow~

Coz today is my father BIRTHDAY!!
My mum make a steamboat and invite her sis de family (MY Aunt)
Come here and have some fun and a gathering sth de..
Talk and talk an talk...
And my Big Bro and my cousins oso got PSP...
They juz keep playing PSP~
And me sitting in front of the PC blogging~

Today, i go to skol..
And dun hv parking le~~
And when i stop the car engine, i receive a msg abt faridah nt free and cancel class
So, stunned!!
So juz keep wandering around the skol...
Then to the assistant room, and they are talking abt the life in U..
They are exciting abt it~

Then we go eat lo~
Su Xian belanja makan le~
We go CHILI'S eat...
Wa... Eat le RM170++
Juz 5 of us... then wan go watch movie de o...
But so many ppl so go bac home le...

This night, my cousin finally take the DVD i borrow him bac to me..
So I get bac the DVD:英雄传说VI:空之轨迹TC
Another game i gonna play~
After i install it, OMG!!! Japanese Ver.
Kena tipu lagi... The cover say simplified Chinese de lo!!

Haiz..
我很庆幸我有如此美好的家庭~
虽然兄弟姐妹之间没有什么交流..
但是却能在无言语的状况下... 明白各个人的苦处~
好难睡觉哦~

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Wat a boring day~

Now, the skol start..
And this friday will be de Teacher Day..
Why the Teacher Day is not 16/5 meh?!
Bcoz the government din accept private skol take that date as Teacher Day...
So, our skol and other skols take this date gua..

Start skol le...
B4 start skol, wa..
SIENZ...
Juz sumtime got go play basketbal nia...
Most of the time i spent on the PC Games..
First is the 英雄传说VI:空之轨迹SC..
I finished it in the holiday...
Nice story..
But still got third episod... TC
Then i play 仙剑奇侠传4
This game is vry interesting..
I had play this series de games for few years...
Since it got 仙剑奇侠传DOS till 仙剑奇侠传4..
它的特点是故事很感人的..
The first and third episod really good, include the extra episod of the Third
Really touching..
I suggest u guys can go search abt it..
Or u oso can ask me to borrow u la..( Be sure u hv DVD rom)

盈盈老师 feel sick this few days..
Monday she din go to skol...
Yesterday we did experiment...
Today, we got 3 period... but she juz teach for 2 periods... Coz she feel uncomfortable and wan sleep at 4th period..
Jia Howe today din come to skol...
He nid to attend his aunt de funeral..
He get a sms from his bro abt this new
So i take bus to skol this morning...
Summore when i go home, i lost the ticket!!(RapidKL)
Haiz... Buy another ticket... RM1 fly le..
Wednesday, pasar malam...
Outside de road damn jam...
Me juz sit in the bus...
And wait and wait and wait...
But i saw my fren de sis, she oso study at CHKL b4 but now 尊孔..(留级twice, if i nt rmb wrong)
My fren above i say is the 1 who always find me go yamcha at saturday night..
Sometime we juz find some frens then go yamcha and chat abt the recently things..
OR talk sth nonsense... Or go to CC play some games but now dun hv liao.. sienz liao..

Today de pasar malam, i go jalan jalan..
WAH! All thing oso rise their price liao wo~
And after the price rise, the people come to there become less le...
And my neighborhood have thief come do some "business"
Sakit kepala, coz they steal shoes... And some robber lo...
Vry serious la... my neighbor nearly get caught into their car.. Luckily, neighbor live beside notice sth wrong outside and go outside to gv a hand to his neighbor...(她住我后面一排)
住远一点就发生一些大件事, 车被偷, 闯进屋子打劫兼伤人, 弄到我们在家也要锁门..

Finally in this holiday, i watch ind jones 3 and 4...
The 4th 1, got little snipe... and sienz..
In my opinion, i think the most interesting episod is the third episod..
Is abt searching the Holy Grail...
Jones din blieve abt that but his father did...
His father juz wan to prove the exist of the Holy Grail and saw it by himself.
The background of this episod is Hitler is abt to declare war to US..

That's fun when u see jones and his father in action..
Summore jones name is Henry Jones Junior..
Why he call himself Indiana Jones? Bcoz a dog called Indiana is his best fren in his childhood..
His father din talk to him coz wan he bcome independent... for 20 years... U can blive?? 20 years din chat wif ur father??OMG!

Haha... Sienz diao liao...
So, i write till here...
Have a nice day or nice dream when u finished this article...